Standing at Cosy’s Beach, feeling the wind whip around my face and letting the fresh sea air soak into my bones, I stood reflecting on where I have been, where I am going and where I could go.
Despite all it’s messiness and challenges thrown at me (from what felt like left, right and centre), 2019 has been a year where I have grown from out of my shell and into a more confident being. This has not happened overnight, but rather as a result of the lessons I have learnt over my formative years that are my 20s.
My 20s (and simultaneously the decade) started with the freedom to explore what I thought I wanted to do career wise, which was a blend of NGO activism and media PR. The volunteering and the work I did cemented my belief of the change young people are capable of and learning that if you want to achieve something, you need to put effort into it.
Mid-decade was the start of the end of my naivety. Taking steps out of my previously sheltered life, I clashed with the complexities of reality where consequently, I had to learn harsh lessons. In response, I learnt to trust my instincts and that if my gut is telling me something is wrong, then something is most definitely wrong.
As I started to scrape myself back off the ground, I started to find my feet, found my confidence again and soared. Throughout the past few years, the end of the decade, the path (that seemed foggy and unclear to younger me) started to become clearer. My decisions, my experiences started to all slot together to show my calling – teaching. Despite some bumps in the road, I finally found my passion.
Looking towards the next decade, there is still a part of me that wishes that the chaos (that was present this year) will settle down over the next decade, but the wiser me knows that this is wishful thinking. I know that I am stronger and more capable of smoothing the chaos that is life into a somewhat smoother ride than I have been able to previously.
The past 10 years were eventful, but I grew and learnt new things. Here’s to another 10 years, where I hope to work towards my dreams and goals and continue to grow to be the best person I can be.